I left this in my inbox to remind me to look at it a few days after the fact (when it didnt feel so raw) but I still think the commas are needed. Without them it is just a sentence, but the commas show where I pause when I say it, and it sounds more like someone wondering and trying to explain it to someone. Maybe it would help if I read it aloud with and without the commas?
not with enjambment though. I don't know, I think a comma is a comma in poetry and prose. Either way, just because you and I naturally pause there doesn't mean everyone would, so I think I will leave them in. I don't think they negatively impact the poem by pointing out that there should be a pause there, even if someone naturally pauses there.
I am trying... it just sneaks up on me and puts its hand over my mouth.. I can be singing or smiling at tv... and then theres a fraction of a second of silence and I remember that he's left... and that... I dont blame him...
I understand. I have moments like that enjoying myself and having fun, then a smell or a thought and it hits like a truck. My stomach hits bottom, and I'm sitting there asking what the hell I did or didn't do. I'm not sure if I could blame her. Every one says I should. As for the weight, yeah pulling you spiritually down I guess.... Any way if you need help standing again let me know ill help where I can