Carbonise, you keep using that word but I think it does not mean what you think it means. (meme's. ha.)
Just a thought about pouring yourself into your work and having people criticising or angry at you for it. My whole life people have asked me not to talk about anger or sadness. My poetry is the one place I can do that. It's sacred to me that way. But I do know that some of those people hate when I write.. and that makes me sad, but I have to.