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When you say goodbye to me - said goodbye to me. I didn't hear you. I didn't really consider the tangible loss of us. I was busy. Because in my mind I was hearing years worth of goodbyes, that run in a steady loop of vinyl to make the white noise soundtrack to my tears. I was busy listening.

You left me for a logical and reasonable reason. I'll never understand it. I'll never really process what your goodbye meant or how it was intended. It was lost on me. I was busy. Because in my mind I was listing all the reasons that I told myself you would eventually leave me over. It was the hummingbird heart of our relationship that behind what I would say, there was what I thought. Two very different things.

Underneath a less than gracious acceptance of you moving on, there are cracks so wide that the substance that the cracks are between becomes the cracks in the emptiness. My head is empty space with slithers of pain far and few between.

But on those cliff blades that make up the terrain of my emotional imbalance, that hostile environment where no love could ever find footing, on those cliffs someone has been writing. The cliffs are neurotic neuron-thin slices of hope with all the reasons why I shouldn't have hope, scrawled on the sides.

Unlovable. Damaged goods. Damaged. Broken. Dirty. Used. Lazy. Selfish. Crazy. Whore. Fool.

I go through the same motions I did the day before, and make myself sick with grief knowing that I will always be the Fool that believes that someone could navigate love over pre-burned bridges. I will always be that Fool that scews her eyes shut, counts to ten, and hope that the dead will rise. That the bad guys will go away. That if I hold my breath, eventually, it will hold itself.

In the meantime, me? Unholdable. I'll be holding my breath for the impossible; a love that forgives me for myself.
Just thinking about breakups... and no matter how logical they are in theory, or how rational the other person is, how I can't believe those 'reasons'. My mind goes back to this same place.... and then I wonder why I am surprised when love slips through the cracks.

What is the point of it all?
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shehrozeameen Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
There is no point... human nature is a predator when it comes to finding someone to settle down with.
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nightshade-keyblade Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Why does it have to come back?
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michi-iyo Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2013
You left me for a logical and reasonable reason. I'll never understand it. I'll never really process what your goodbye meant or how it was intended. It was lost on me..

perfect.
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WinterLeave Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
O dear, love is never pointless! Hold on, it will reach you <3
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LadyLincoln Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
The ending is hauntingly beautiful.

Lovely as always, honey. :heart:
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62nh Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013
I agree so much it hurts.
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Flynt126 Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013
Well love is ever better, win or lose it all yeah?
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Lauryn120 Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I'm gonna cry. You always make me feel the deepest emotions.
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ithaswhatitisnt Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
You have a way of reading my mind and making me cry, Kathryn. Every single time. :cry:

But I love that you can do that. Well done.

:tighthug:
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HadrianR Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013
The point? [link] maybe.
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